On the 7th of June, it was my 2 year anniversary of this journey, when I found my lump. That date was also exactly 4 months from my 1st reconstruction surgery when I realized I’ve gone the distance and ready for the next phase. I have seen the surgeon today and she confirmed we have significant implants to implant and it’s time to move forward…..July 20th.
While very pleased with the process, and happy with sprouting DD, I don’t necessarily feel like they look like that but even more worrisome, I’m a little scared I don’t know how to do well!! I mean I have had chronic pain and disease on and off now for 20 odd years.
In revealing my vulnerability I also need to clarify I am 1000% happy, healthy and whole and of the unshakable belief I will remain that way. So although it’s challenging to visualise a future without dis-ease in it, it is possible.
Which brings me to the realm of possibilities. So I’m currently, as you know, emersing my self in coaching study, building my business in the pre planning stage, and last but most empowering researching quantum physics. So what did I learn last night? Particles become waves when you stop observing them, when in the wave molecule state, one molecule is in multiple locations or possibilities. This is when the magic happens. Bottom line: your body has the inherent desire to heal itself, so stop getting in it’s way.
With this being said, I’ve decided to test my theory and not go back on my trial drug after my surgery is finished.
Happy days xx
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I was 21 and I was planning a wedding, buying a house and had a job interview for the job of my dreams on my 22nd birthday. You see I was being made redundant and had to find a new job by August. Especially with the new mortgage now. It was April. I worked for CML and my new job was a done deal. All I needed was a medical. And with that, just like that....my life was turned upside down and I was diagnosed with CML, ha ha, I know the irony. My hematologist had a laugh at that too. I had Chronic Myeloid Leukeamia, which was normally reserved for 70 year old men. Quite rare for a young adult to get, so how would they treat it? I underwent two separate trials until finally it was decided my best chance of survival (all be it only 50% chance), would be a MUD BMT (matched unrelated bone marrow transplant), now known as VUD Allograt (volunteer unrelated donor). I was told 21 years ago the chance of finding a match was 1 in 20,000 (and that is everyone was on the bone marrow donor registry). Scary odds. So being the risk taker I am I said "go for it". They found a match and that was my first miracle in this journey. The second miracle was, it worked - new blood type, two different DNA profiles and the miracle of medicine was reborn inside me. The third miracle is my son.
25 years on, I now face a new challenge. Breast Cancer. Certainly not the first person to have cancer, to have invasive ductile cancer, hormone receptive and HER2 +, or to even have a dual diagnosis. But this is not another Webiste about a cancer survivor, this is just my excuse to finally publicly write. Along the way I am hoping I can share some insights I have learnt over the years and at the same time, give you a good belly laugh.
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